commentr/StutterJuly 30, 2016

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Like many of you, I was born with a stutter, and it had slowly become the dominating obstacle in my life. Although at a young age I was excelling in primary school, getting into the country's top 1-3% in math/science/English, but this trend began falling with my falling confidence due to the impediment. Middle school/High school and college are usually speech-mandatory, and the more I matured, the less my stutter had become an issue in my life. This image is from my lowest point, when I was so depressed and frustrated with my communication skills. I absolutely despised speaking (still do to a certain extent), and the anxiety that built from knowing that I would stutter simply amplified the influence of the stutter while I spoke, and in turn amplified the anxiety. My parents and friends were always supportive, and my mother had convinced me to write to stutterers who had gotten over their impediment. This was when I was around 13 years old, and I had really idolized the Obama administration and looked up to Vice President Biden. I was just as moved from his speech at the 2016 DNC as I was when I got this letter. Now, I'm a lot stronger and in control of my stutter. My stutter comes from oral muscle memory and other unrelated forms of anxiety, and is slowly going away as I continue my mental and oral exercises and techniques (that I have seen many of you develop on your own during my time lurking this sub!). It gets better. If you want to own and make peace with your impediment, I envy you. It's something I was never able to do.

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Emotional ExperienceAnticipation & AvoidanceCauses & Variability

Subthemes

Sadness & HopelessnessAnxiety & Social JudgmentOverthinking & MonitoringPropositionality & WeightHope & Motivation

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public_speaking