Try not to feel bad what you did took a lot of courage! I used to be terrified to order especially at sit down restaurants when they would slowly go around the table and I knew with each persons order it was getting closer to mine and I would psych myself out and become a total mess with everyone watching. It was horrible. It’s gotten better over the years but I do still get nervous when ordering over the phone. I still have a problem whenever meeting new people and introducing myself (ie. trying to say my name) and sometimes it’s a home run and I do just fine and other times I get stuck and can’t even get a sound out. After struggling I finally can say my name and I just feel so awful/stupid afterwards like I forgot my name or something. It’s happened one too many times and now I’m traumatized to meet new people. I would say try to keep doing it over and over if you feel courageous enough and hopefully eventually it will get better and you’ll build your confidence. Confidence is key!