I let stuttering take my teen years, my 20's and it's about to take my 30's. I've never dated, had my first kiss or held hands or any of that. I don't know what it's like to enjoy a conversation. I have no friends and my only memories are working, sitting in traffic, and bills. My best advice to you is to get over the fear ASAP. I believe that is what held me back all these years. Get good at something, build your confidence, put yourself in uncomfortable speaking situations as a much as possible, and be kind to yourself. Don't be like me and let the fear drive.