I think I'm actually making some progress

I think I'm actually making some progress It's not necessarily progress towards being more fluent, but instead towards being able to deal with my stutter and react to it in a better way. I was in a Google meet for class and I decided to unmute myself and answer a question. I usually just type in the chat box so this was terrifying, but I did it! Unfortunately I did stutter pretty badly on a word at the end which made me want to just leave the call right then and there because I was so humiliated. I felt my face get red and my heart was beating out of my chest just because I unmuted my mic and stuttered on a word. But after a few minutes I realized that absolutely nobody is going to be thinking how I stumbled over that word since everybody is focusing on themselves. There's also no way of knowing that people were secretly judging me so why even bother thinking about it. I've realized that I've given this stutter so much power over me for no reason. I've tried adapting this mindset for so long and I seemed hopeless because everytime I stuttered in class or in a conversation, it wouldn't leave my mind for the rest of the day. I would physically cringe thinking back at it and it was just so mentally draining. But after answering that question in class, I noticed how quickly I was able to stop myself from spiraling and overthinking which honestly gives me a lot of hope for progress :) I don't know if any of this makes sense since I have a hard time wording things but I just wanted to share lmao so thanks for reading!