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Stuttering and loneliness Hi dear fellows, Today I had a bad day and I needed to write something about it. I'm 36 y.o and I've been stuttering for my whole life. I live in a huge city here in Spain and I feel (and I am) lonely, I have almost no friends to hang out with. During my entire life I've seen how lots of people I considered to be friends ended up fading away from me until completely vanishing from my life. And that hurts, specially when it happens again and again. But I try my best to make friends. I attend to language exchanges, dance meetings (I know some salsa and stuff like that) and events like these. Despite my introversion, despite my stuttering. I try my best to make friends, and even though sometimes it seems that I'm succeeding in it, I ultimately fail. Over and over. Nobody seems to want to be my friend. And I am 100% sure that this is because of my stutter (although of course nobody has ever said to me "hey I don't to be your friend because of your stutter"). People is not that honest. But I know that my stuttering is the root of my loneliness. But what pisses me off the most is the fact that nowadays everybody talks about mental health, about that if you feel lonely, helpless, hopeless or something like that, you just have to speak up, ask for help and people will help you. Everybody says that we live in a tolerant, unprejudiced society. And that's utterly false. This society does not accept people like us the stutterers. That's a fact. I suffer it on a daily basis and I'm afraid that some you also suffer it. And I can't stand that hypocrisy. Sorry for the negative vibe of this post. It's late here and time to sleep, but I needed to put into words what I was feeling now before going to bed. Tomorrow I'll probably feel better and I even might delete this post. I don't like to spread negativity, but some days are just hard.