The main reason of your suffering isnt your stuttering, is your relationship with It. Stuttering sucks I know It first hand, but the truth is that It isnt the worst thing in the world, and you know It. Of course you are allowed to be miserable and trap yourself in a never ending depresive circle, but you have to know that just because you choose that, It doesnt mean that you could actually have a pretty normal Life and be Happy with yourself. Just Accept It, laugh at yourself and let It make you stronger, because you can be way more stronger than this condition Unless there are other things that makes your Life really really hard, you can beat this and get over the fact that you stutter, you are more than that, indint know you, but I would bet a Big amount of money on that. I apologize for my english, Im spanish!