It is so depressing to not be able to speak, and have conversations with people, including with my own family.
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It is so depressing to not be able to speak, and have conversations with people, including with my own family. Hello everyone 🥹 in a way I am glad this group exists because I do not feel alone. But at the same time, it sucks that we have to deal with this. I just want to vent a little, and maybe get some tips or advice. It gets so depressing and frustrating when I am dying to make a conversation with a person, especially with my own family! I would love to talk to my family, I have so many things to ask them but my stuttering problem makes it hell for me. Sometimes I just think to myself that one day that family member will not be in this world and because of my stupid stuttering problem I never got to chance to connect with them the way I always wanted to. ( I know it’s a little too excessive but it’s true 🥺) It pains me so much that they probably feel like I don’t like them, or like I don’t want to talk to them. But In reality I am so eager to have a conversation with them.My stutter is worse when I speak Spanish, most of my family are Spanish speakers and it just makes it so much harder to connect with them. I want to be able to talk to people without them having to feel bad for my stutter and trying to help me finish my sentence( although i really do appreciate it tbh) I want to communicate with people without them giving me the face of confusion every time I speak, once I see that they are making that face I just want to stop speaking , scream, and just cry out of pure frustration. This makes me hate myself sooooo much! I just want to be happy, I want to have a deep connection with my family, and I want to be able to make friends and ask questions when I need to and ask for help. I just really want to be able to communicate. 😔