commentr/StutterJuly 16, 2023

Content

For me yes. I have been a stutter my whole life but there have been a big change on my mindset while growing up. When I was a kid, I did´ not feel embarassment because of my stutter. I just feel I was born that way and I was not my fault. I was just a kid. But then I started to develop a sort of fear; ¿What if I continue to stutter being an adult? That was intolerable. It was too weird. So I tryed to solve the puzle with all my strength. There´ is when the problem got a lot worse. It is like I became more of a stutter and have more fear of stuttering. When I was a kid I just stutter for did not have anxiety related issues. Another big thing was when I was on school everyone know I stutter but they did not care that much. Or better said, I did not care that much what the other people think. Soon as I enter university no one knew. It was my big secret. So there is a two way anxiety problem. 1) Trying to keep it a secret to my new enviroment 2) Blaming and feeling ashamed because I was a "adult" and still stutter. To be honest I always feel less of me because I stutter. Like I was a nervous fella. Well. Thanks for the oportunity to said this. Always had the thougth but never the chance to express it.

Themes

Anticipation & AvoidanceEmotional ExperienceIdentity & Disability

Subthemes

Hiding & ConcealmentAnxiety & Social JudgmentIdentity & Self-PerceptionShame & Embarrassment

Codes (2)

socializing_group_sizeperceived_judgment