commentr/StutterMarch 17, 2019

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Hi! I'm a 20 yo student who has been stuttering since I was 8 yo. My stutter was terrible through secondary school (High school for any American friends here), but I had a group of friends that liked me for my character and capacity, so I had support during thus difficult time. Then college came. My friends all went their separate ways, and I was alone in a college on the other side of the country. My 1st year of college was a mess. I was so afraid of my stutter and too shy to talk to anybody else. I sat in the front row of the lecture hall, with nobody beside me. I made a new friend in college at the end of the year, but that was short lived, since I changed discipline, which made me never see him again. When second year came around, I was sick of myself being put back by my stutter, so I decided I had enough. I was always fascinated by talk show hosts, the way they are able to control the conversation and steer it in whatever way they please. One thing kept popping up. They all sat straight. They maintained continous eye contact. I knew this was going to be difficult. I remembered one thing my parents told me: "Everyone nowadays are too busy. They dont have time to judge you." I got the guts to talk to a couple of guys behind my row in class, and I was recruited into their class project. Before I knew it, I was happy, my shyness had decreased, and my stutter was certainly losing. My interviews for work placement came up the following year. I applied to every place I could. To my surprise, I was shortlisted for every interview I applied to, and I got accepted into my second interview, well ahead of everyone else. I had to deliver a presentation in front of 30 people for an assignment. I was very scared beforehand, but I thought to myself "if you were able to pull off that interview, you can do this too". I pulled off the presentation very well. I didn't stutter, but I talked slow enough to slow my speech to give me more control. So what does all this mean? It means to not let your stutter defeat you! I once read that the human brain is the most complicated thing in the universe, more powerful than any supercomputer, and only runs on the power of a light bulb. Be yourself. Stand up straight. Look them in the eye and tell them who's boss. 10 years from now you don't want to think "Man I wish I applied to that personal trainer job". Every human being is imperfect. You are qualified, you got the skills, you are worth it. Dont let anybody else, or especially you, convince yourself otherwise. You can do it!

Themes

Anticipation & AvoidanceEmotional ExperienceSchool & Work

Subthemes

Avoidance & SubstitutionHiding & ConcealmentOverthinking & MonitoringHope & MotivationSchool & Academic LifePublic Speaking

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perceived_judgmentsocial_pressure