Yeah I don't think it's just a juvenile ventation and it's a pride for you to share your true feelings off your chest here with courages.But yeah I also gotta admit it that spending time on being grudging others fluent speaking and just venting here.You gotta start with analyzing your own stuttering.First, do you stutter due to the genes or other things like neurological traumas, injuries, drugs, etc.?Secondly, can you manage to afford for a good decent speech therapy specialized in stuttering? If so plz go get one it may help.Thirdly, have you ever asked your gf about her acceptance of your stuttering? If she said she didn't mind your stuttering, not to mention you have mentioned above you don't have other good features to counterbalance the detriments of stuttering so I am very convinced she really doesn't care about your stuttering and if you still keep fixated on stuttering tbh it may devastate your relationship.Finally, if you are feeling alone as a stutterer plz join the discord. I am glad to see our member supplemented again!