New Job, trying to accept my stutter
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New Job, trying to accept my stutter Hi guys, long time lurker here. Also English is not my first language so sorry in advance. I just started a new job last week, it's really great and giving me kind of a career boost in my early working years after I graduated last year. I studied psychology with focus on business psychology in my masters and am working in a big business in human resources now. So my job involves lots and lots of talking. My stutter is not that severe, I would say mild overall but when I'm nervous totally noticeable because I get strong anxiety about stuttering and hiding it. I disclosed the stuttering with my new bosses early in my interview process and they were fine with it, even liked how transparent I was about it. my first days on the job are very challenging and involve a lot of talking to strangers. Today I had to watch and learn the interview process of a colleague and had to introduced myself at the table. I was so nervous that I reduced my talking to the absolute necessary because I was so afraid to stutter and look like a fool. I don't want to limit myself by this disability. It is what it is and I know I'm really good at my job. I wand to show my potential and just stutter openly. It's not that bad that it would affect my work, but my anxiety and fear of stuttering definitely is. I tried speech therapy but it didn't work out for me. I know I need to stutter actively so I don't reduce my speaking time or get really bad anxiety trying to not show. On bad days the hiding is so exhausting and I think other people don't really notice because most of the time I'm successful hiding. But it's so not worth it. Worst case is the hiding affecting my work because I'm talking more casual and less professional to avoid stuttering on "hard words". And that's such a shame because I'm very eloquent. I feel like a lot of my potential is getting lost. I'm new at this stage of transparency and acceptance and it's easy to talk/write about but hard to do in the situations needed. Whats your experience? How do I learn to stutter openly and not hide anymore? I'm grateful for any advice or tips.