I think as girls, we know how to fake it better and laugh it off with a flick of our hair. Also, when I stutter infront of other girls its usually not even a big deal, but guys can be viscious and I can't imagine the kind of shit you have to cope with. The most embarassing was when I was being introduced to a crush and I told him my middle name "A" to avoid an accidental stutter slip cause I could feel it building up at the back of my throat. And that guy almost immediately tried to look me up on social media infront of me and went "Wait...whys is your name (S) on facebook tho?". Had to come up with an impromptu excuse on the spot but holy shit that was unnecessarily stressful. Bad days are only exacerbated with my own disappointment in me cause I know I have done so much better at other times even with the whole world watching. I don't think I've ever looked up breathing exercies for stuttering in particular, just anxiety in general. But I think these meditation and breathing workouts only make me even more hyper aware of the situation and becomes a triggering mechanism. Thanks for taking the time to share your thoughts tho, I know I am not the only one with these problems but its nice to hear from others who aren't just being supportive as a mandate cause they're either family or friends. Chin up, head high!