There is one way to speak normal again

There is one way to speak normal again There was moment in my work when I came to conclusion that I make all this stupid faces and noises trying to speak normal yet anyone clearly see there is nothing normal with it. The more I tried the more I was blocking. So I just said to myself fuck it I'm gonna stutter officially. I felt ashamed from my speech that causes me more stutter and feel bad about myself. It is vicious cycle. That was the moment when I finally did not have to try hard to look and speak normal. I did not focus on my speech I let it just be as it wanted to eventually be. I felt relaxed and could speak fluent more and more. It was so good I was afraid this is maybe temporary. The pattern is always the same. If it is truly ok with me to stutter then paradoxicly I speak fluently. The power of the paradox. You have to be ok to stutter so you do not stutter. Accepting it is the hardest part but this is the key.