I've known her since I was a kid so we're already friends and she already knows I stutter (it's not something I can really hide). My speech is really bad right now and I just find talking really difficult, so it's hard for me to say the things I want to say and I'm usually really quiet in person, or I avoid her, so I tend to save all the things I really want to say to tell her in writing. It's so frustrating.