Hey man. I felt the exact same way at your age. Life was hell. I remember how it felt like stuttering owned everything in my universe. I'm 37 now and I work in communications. I make good money. I'm popular. I still stutter. What worked? Getting absolutely crushed. I stuttered in front of people and on the phone so many times. I left college crying before it was my turn to speak. I had to write my order for restaurants on a note. I got an internship in journalism and spent about 5 minutes trying to say my phone number in an open office. My editor was looking right at me the whole time with eyes of empathy. I still couldn't say my phone number. I had to get the shit kicked out of me like that for a long time... but you know what, you build scar tissue. When you've been round the block 10,000 times, at some point it stops hurting. Not soon enough. You probably have a lot of pain to go. But here's the thing - stuttering will never physically hurt you. Mentally and emotionally, for sure. But you can keep walking through that. Anyway. I'm not trying to blow smoke up your ass that it'll get easier or you'll stop stuttering. You probably won't. But it's the road to acceptance that "cures" the problem. I encourage you with all my heart to continue doing scary things and continue stuttering and making a fool of yourself. No matter how bad it goes. At some point, it stops hurting. That's when you're free.