Exactly. After so much time noticing how bothered people get when I stutter, I had an epiphany that the people in my "social" circle were just embarrassed to admit they didn't like being around me. I ended up being the inconvenient one. It was hard to really admit that to myself honestly. It was one of the darkest periods in my life. Fortunately, it's in the past, but I still deal with the consequences.