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I have an infuriating problem. I am a naturally introverted person. I have almost no university friends of whom I talk to or meet regularly, mostly online connections. English is also my second language. I speak Vietnamese at home and English when I go to classes. The problem is, I mostly speak Vietnamese at home despite knowing very little about the language but speaks very little English even though I use it in almost all aspects of of my life outside of talking to my parents. Every single goddamn time I tried to discuss complicated topics with my parents, I can hardly articulate or transmit what I want to say because I simply don't know the words... So there were many times where I get stuck mid sentence trying to translate in my head. I think this is where my stutter problem started. I get hang on what I'm about to say because I automatically want to say it in English, so I stop myself. Now when I speak English, I get hang on the exact words that I usually translate to Vietnamese. Not speaking English in recent time has exacerbated this issue to the point, where now I will get word stuck in my mouth every goddamn fucking moment. It's right there, I can spell it inside my head. I can "air pronounce" it. I am so familiar with these words and yet, I can't form a straight sentence.