Human beings are cruel, especially in the 70s-80s-90s, where there were less awareness to sttutering. You are loved. It's important to me that you know this. I can't imagine what you've been through in 61 years, I just want you to know that you matter, although with a sttuter we often think that we don't. I wish you luck in your journy. I study a similar field to yours, I can only dream that when I reach my 60s - I'll retire to a lonely and desolate cabin in the woods.