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'i have to play the brave role' I'm talkative, positive, supportive, mature. But I stutter, and that's the one wrong that negates all the good. People don't take me seriously, or they don't even understand me. I'm a confident person, but I've lost my self-confidence because of my stutter. I pretend to be confident to people, I appear brave despite my stutter, and I play the role of "stuttering, but brave, confident, and carefre girl." But I worry about everything. A lot. I just want people to see me like that because i want to be that way. But I know I can never be. I'm a little young and I go to school. There are so many questions I want to do at school that no one else knows, but only I do. But I can't answer them, so I pretend not to. But I tell people, "I'm this brave, even though i stutter." At first, this act was just me trying to fit into this brave mold, but now it's so much more. I want to be so brave, carefree, self-confident, and carefree that pretending to be confident is my only escape. But I know it's not even an escape. Until a year ago, I was really confident. No pretense, no trickery. My stuttering was minimal, and I REALLY enjoyed life. But now I've lost everything, and I just want to destroy my mouth sometimes i stutter.