Whenever someone told me to stop, breathe and think about what I’m going to say. It had to opposite effect. I would stutter more and most of the time as a kid I would run off outside and disappear from my family. If I wasn’t at home or it was too cold outside I would disappear in the basement and could up in the corner under the Commodore 64’s and go to sleep. I can stop talking whenever I want. But I will say this. Sometimes my throat gets really tight and constricted. It hurts really bad when it and I have to talk.