hey dude, i know it's hard, trust me, i'm going through it now with my current job! what has helped me is just ... giving in, hah, if that makes sense. like i just say "okay, i stutter, so what?" most people don't really seem to care. there is more to life, to my life, than stuttering. maybe some people will get annoyed by it, but honestly, most people don't really care. i think the more you avoid it's like creating this impenetrable wall of fears. i remember when i would seriously avoid and it just became a chore to do everything, even small interactions become anxiety-inducing, it just gets worse and worse. it's difficult, but i think desensitization will help you in the long run. hang in there! PM me if you want to chat more. :-D