i stutter too and im a 18f freshman in uni right now so rip me. there’s been so many times where i just break down and just think about how my life would be so much better if i didn’t stutter. i do believe that if i didn’t stutter, my first impression with other people would be different than what it is right now. but sometimes i think to myself how the little shits who think my speech is weirdo or that im a ret*rd are people I don’t want in my life anyway? like imagine someone making fun of someone for having adhd or anxiety, that’s so so so so shitty. during rona season ive been keeping to myself and trying to use alone time to go into “rehab.” i sometimes read new books, meditate, exercise, or hang out with a friend on days to help me grow as a person. i think it’s been working a bit? first of all, these activities kinda combat my stuttering anxiety. second, i feel that growing as a person internally, makes me feel like a person who is more than just a stutterer. like reading new books kinda makes me more informed about the world, and it kinda improves my language skills. exercising helps me get to the healthiest person i can be, (and i kinda wanna look hot tbh when quarantine ends). I feel like stuttering sort of stunted my growth as a person, having not a lot of friends and being “quiet” made me timid and shy. i missed out on a lot of cool highschool experiences just because of my stutter and i owe it to myself to try and be better in ways that stuttering can’t touch. along the way though, i have noticed that my stuttering has reduced ALOT when i went on this “awakening” journey. you owe it to yourself to LOVE yourself and the body you’re in, and everyone else who doesn’t agree can quite literally fuck off <3