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Stuttering has gotten severe - Hi everyone, Just venting here and trying to see if anyone has any advice or has gone through anything similar? My stuttering has gotten severe over the past few years and I am very stuck. My whole life, my stuttering has gone through waves. I have gone from speaking in full sentences and introducing myself, to making almost fluent presentations in class, to not being able to speak on the phone, and being unable to complete a full sentence without disfluency. I know it happens when I am very nervous and when I believe other people could be judging me. Usually I can get out of my head, take a deep breath before, and get the words out. But now, I feel I can't even put sentences together. The words just won't come through. I have major blocks and my block lasts so long, and are so exhausting, I sometimes have to give up entirely. I truly feel like I can't get through it. I try starting over, breathing deeply, smiling, trying to be light-hearted, meditating, trying to get out of my head - but I feel like it overtakes me. This has caused me to take on a lot of avoidance habits recently (not talking on phones, rejecting interviews, not engaging in friendly discussions). I am very worried. I want to keep trying and I don't want this stutter to stop me from going for things - but my stutter has never been this bad. It no longer feels like a disfluency - I feel like it has crippled me. I have social anxiety and the stuttering has just made everything feel too overwhelming. It's led to me feeling more depressed. Has anyone else seen huge dips in stuttering and felt like it's made you feel completely helpless? I would love to talk to anyone who understands or has gone through anything similar. Btw, I'm 31 years old and from the Washington, D.C. area.