>The only thing that is hurting your relationship with your parents is the fact that you think that you need to perform well to receive their love. Not really, they told me several times how bad it makes them feel. Not the stuttering per se, but the fact that I'm hurting myself and losing control of my anger because of it. Also, what bothers me is not being able to communicate, I try to focus on the content, but it just won't come out, that's what frustrates me the most, I don't really care about what other people think of it, I only care about being able to express myself. >Tell your parents they raised a great child (you) and that you thank them for that. And that you know your stuttering isn’t what you’ve become. And tell them that you are proud that they are your parents and that you are proud and glad to be part of the family you’re in. Sounds like a good idea, but also just thinking about telling this to my parents makes me so anxious, I know it won't come out, but you're right, my anxiety produces a sort of vicious cycle. >If you ask your parents I would bet that the only thing they are worried about is if you are ok. That's true ! >But I’d bet that your parents see a lot more value in you, even right now, than you see in yourself. That's what they keep telling me. Thank you very much for your encouragement and book recommendations, I'll definitely check them out !