I just found this sub and I've never been more happy [Vent]

I just found this sub and I've never been more happy [Vent] To find a place where you won't be judged for having a stutter is amazing. I recently developed it (in the last year or two) and it's so rough. My mom tells me to talk slower, which I do, but if I talk too slow, people think that I'm mentally retarded. So I can't win either way. You can just tell by their facial expressions. I've resorted to talking very limited now, which isn't helping my stutter. At my last job I was told that I sounded unsure of my self and that customers wouldn't listen to me. Do you think that I want this damn thing ?! Please, if you want this thing, take it away. You think that I like people staring at me like im stupid? At this job, I also was threatened by a coworker that she'd "punch the stutter out of me". Like what? I'm also scared to date. I'm a female and I'm 19. But whenever I get asked out on dates, it's a decently short conversation (not like a date) and I psych myself out so much that I cant even get a damn word out. I can only talk to 2 people without a stutter. And that's not even my family. It's my two only friends. I have 2 old friends cause it's like my stutter scares me off. It doesn't matter how many times I rehearse in my head, it always comes out in a stutter. I try so damn hard but as soon as my mind realizes that I'm gonna talk to a stranger or anyone besides my 2 old friends, it's like my brain starts freaking out. I just needed to get that out so bad I'm sorry for the wall of text :(