I often have terrible anxiety around my stutter. I have a mild stutter but am very very covert. I used to be terrified of stuttering in public or with people I wanted to impress. I was so terrified I gained near perfect control of my speech. But I was terrified of one day getting stuck. I imagined that my mask would fall off and I’d be exposed for the imposter that I was. So after a fuck ton of therapy, I decided to be more open. I still couldn’t bring myself to stutter openly, but I talked about it to some of my friends in the hope that it would take some of the pressure off. They (my friends) said universally, that they had never noticed. On one hand I was proud at my fluency. On the other hand I was anxious that now I had to maintain this control of my speech because if they hadn’t noticed before, they damn sure weren’t going to notice now. Do you see what I am saying? You are always going to be anxious about your speech until you accept it. Even gaining control is not enough. Ps I haven’t accepted it and am struggling but it’s not killing me yet, so until it starts to, I shall be here, doing my best to maintain a perfect facade.