Man don't be sad. It looks like I care so much about talking. And that's causing stuttering. U can talk and thing at the same time. Try speaking on urge. Sit down and say first word that come to your mind and soon as it arrives without thinking about it. If u can say one word without stuttering u can say any word without stuttering. Also when u stutter in front of someone don't beat yourself. This quote really helped me : ,, if u don't care about it in your mind, nobody cares!" It so true.