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I don’t know how long I have left. I’m 15 years old and I have just started my fourth year in high school. It has been the worst thing to ever happen to me in my life, my stutter became worse over the summer due to not leaving my house and socialising, usually I’m the highlight of the classroom with quick jokes and I guess you could say I sit with the popular people, they and the whole class know I have a slight stutter but it never really showed severely like it has this year. My second day back I was asked to say my name and this is usually the thing I dread and hate, I sat there with my hand over my mouth just leaving out little sounds.. I can’t even type it out because I’m so embarrassed but it is what it is, I told my parents and they tried setting up restrictions so I don’t have to participate as much but it doesn’t suit my old personality, it’s almost like a new weird me. Anyways here I am lying in bed at 12 AM a few hours after pushing my dad to the floor against my bedroom door. My dad and mom had found out I wasn’t going to school and was roaming my town instead the past week, we had a talk and came to an understanding on why I dread school, I’m not reassured with the restrictions set up and I don’t have the courage, I am experiencing depression for the first time in my life and I’m suicidal, people keep telling me it gets better and it’s only a small part of me but it shadows who I used to be and now I’m losing friends. This post probably won’t get recognised and it will probably be taken down. I hope Atleast one person can acknowledge my cry for help. I never thought this would be my life, Please tell me how to fix this.