I have stuttered all my life and would love to share my experiences as well! It's been at its worst during my childhood, there were many moments I couldn't say four words in a row without stuttering... –and with "stuttering" I mean "running face first into a block and being completely unable to save myself or get out". I've never really been treated with tolerance or sensitivity towards my stutter, especially not by my peers. It's been a very difficult time and it still has a lasting impact on my sense of self-worth and so on. I've seen many speech therapists in my time (I'm younger than you, by the way) and yes, just like you I've fought my entire live to make it go away. Around two years ago I was laughed at again for pausing two seconds before being able to say my name. I stuttered in my head but I didn't audibly stutter (like audible repetitions that others heard). I literally just paused for one or two seconds and it still makes me furious how easy people are to laugh. They didn't know a single thing about me. I could have silently cleared my throat. Anyway, I blamed myself again but then something happened inside of me. I asked myself why they would have any right or justification to make fun of me. I asked myself why I blamed myself for the exhausting battles in my head that I never agreed to participate in. Since that event, I am loud and proud about my struggles, problems, silent battles. Because it's not my fault and nobody -not a single soul- has any justifucation to downplay my struggles. I accept and love my stutter. It's part of me. And there is nothing wrong with that. Nothing. I lowkey look forward to me stuttering again because with this I can show others that we exist and we're real and we are fighting every single day. I want to cherish who I really am and not who you want me to be. \*mic drop lmao