Do not choose the drug route it’ll gradually lead you down a path where you really should never go to you’ll think you have it under control but will eventually realize you’re spiraling. getting addict to various drugs are never a good coping mechanism. Been there done that. If choosing that route bc of your stutter you really should look into alternatives “treatments”. Try drinking 8-16oz of green tea as much as you feel like it’s nature’s medicine my dude it’ll calm your mind down which helps you focus on your words as well as meditation. meditation doesn’t mean to sit quietly in a room it’s doing an activity that allows you to get out of your head such as working out,reading, creating something anything is better than an addiction. Look into different healthy coping mechanisms bc it’ll be a shame if something bad happens to you. there’s a lot of bunk drugs going around and a lot of lives being lost due to ODing. please be safe.