I don't consider myself a person and gotta become one

I don't consider myself a person and gotta become one Long ramble incoming. Another day of bad thoughts and realizations I'm sick of watching everyone else get into relationships easily and be able to have long good conversations, being the trash pushed aside to get to the 'real people' I'm on a time crunch with my mortality and gotta stop fucking around. I I've given up on online dating as it's all the same waste of time fuckoff bullshit again and again, I guess I need exposure therapy to force myself to get better in person. But I'm determined. I'm tired of being left out, looked down on, sounding like a fucking toddler in a grown man's body still learning to talk, I'm trying to work on my confidence but my stutter isn't even my only problem that makes me a different species from everyone else, what kinda places do most of you try to start to get better socializing? Music bars? Or what more appropriate social events?? I want to know. I don't want to be a burden to anyone I'd want to be around just being myself. I've gotta start fixing myself even winging it till I start doing stuff right.