I have felt suicidal for alot of reasons. It is sure not fortunate that we got stuck with this disability. I've tried everything and my speech never gets better. The only thing that has helped me is the desire to sneeze some happiness out of this life before it's over. You can still take a walk and breath on the fresh air. You can enjoy the taste and smell of your favorite foods. Animals don't care how to talk so spending time with them is a joy. I had to accept that I would never be the person telling a story in the center of a group where everyone is captivated. I will hardly ever make a good first impression at all. I have found some people on this planet though who do love me and accept me as I am. That's a reason to live.