I used to go to therapy years back. Maybe when I was 6 or 7 and I don't think it necessarily helped? It made me more aware that I was "different" in a way. And throughout school. I never had many friends. I had afew and that's okay. I always avoided presentations. I avoided everything social. Later during my last years of school. I tried ecstasy once and other times I tried xanax. Just to see how it would affect my speech. And yes it did remove my anxiety and I was able to speak properly almost. But I didn't use it after because I knew. It's not the answer to my problem. Someone told me about psychedelics and so on. How it can cure stuttering etc and make you appreciate yourself and live life to its fullest. Well I done that and I see the potential. But thats something I can't handle well and yeah I won't let this go on for too long. My family know I stutter. But it's embarrassing to be honest. I can't even speak to my father without speech blocks happening. I can't say my name in an introduction. I've kinda accepted my fate but it's still bringing me down day by day. And sometimes I feel like I'm losing touch of reality. My mental state has not been good these past few months. It's been.. really bad. Sorry for the rant and I appreciate your comment. I just feel so alone and it's nice to know someone on the other side of the world cares for you