I definitely relate, specially on how stuttering has had an infinitely bigger impact on my negative feelings and fucked up self esteem. Then again, I do see being gay as an incredibly rewarding experience as it allowed me to be more empathetic and experience the world with “inclusive eyes” and form a community that is lovable. Being a stutterer, however, just made me more introverted, introspective, antisocial, and with huge self hatred, shame, and terrified of taking certain chances. I wouldn’t change my sexuality if I had the choice, but I would change my stuttering in the blink of an eye.