commentr/StutterJune 12, 2023

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First Cent: Desire is only a bad thing when it consumes you, or you need that thing **right the eff now**. In my experience, especially relating to my stutter, my desire to be more fluent is not a problem. My obsession to be 100% fluent 100% of the time by the time I wake up tomorrow and the disappointment every day when I wasn't, however, was. I still desire to be 100% fluent. But, I understand that that is unobtainable, so my desire to 'continue my progress toward being as fluent as I can get' has been a much healthier mindset for me. Second Cent: In my life, I have pushed people away because I was jealous of them because they were fluent. My desire to be fluent was so skewed and overwhelming it was getting in the way of any relationship I had. But that really wasn't desire, that was somewhere between jealousy and envy. This was as unhealthy as it sounds. I still have a bit of it, but I can recognize it for what it is and call myself out for it. Just because we are PWS doesn't mean we can't want to not be, but it does mean we have to be OK with that fact that, today and most probably tomorrow, we are. The OP is a post that should be read more than once.

Themes

Anticipation & AvoidanceEmotional ExperienceIdentity & Disability

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Avoidance & SubstitutionHope & MotivationAnxiety & Social JudgmentAcceptance & Pride