Psychiatric drugs, an anit-psychotic in this case, can sometimes cause the right chemical shift for a particular person to help with their difficulty, whether it's on label (psychosis; bipolar disorder), or off label, like stuttering. Right, it's a hardcore drug that can have side effects and may stop working at some point. But, from what you describe, it's reasonable to try in your case. And it seems to be helping. I don't know if it's because there's a link between schizophrenia and stuttering -- don't think there's any known connection there, but who knows. I do not stutter myself, but this is my opinion: Right, self-acceptance is awesome. But....it's not a solution if you cannot get there for whatever reason. I do not think there is any shame in taking a drug that helps. We all just want to live with less fear, shame, self-consciousness, fewer limitations.....It's not an addictive drug that will cause dependency problems; unless you're having serious side effects, it's not going to impair your behavior or judgement like alcohol or certain drugs when they are misused; people stay on anti-psychotics for decades when they are needed. Perhaps it has an anti-anxiety effect on you. Or maybe it's another effect, as yet unknown. Whatever it is, it's helping right now. Life is easier. You can say "plastic." What else matters?