commentr/StutterMarch 5, 2025

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After stuttering for 30 years, what helped me was a certain shift in mentality. It didn't cure my stutter, but it did help me move away from the constant fear of how other people might be judging me. It helped me be confident 'inspite' of my stutter: \- I learned to detatch myself from the fear and the shame. I'm NOT my fear, I'm not my shame. I'm me. Everything else is just happening to me. So I have choice whether I want to be affected by external things beyond my control. I choose NOT to be affected by them. \- It is harmful for my soul to remain fearful of other people's judgement. Simply ignoring other people negative AND positive judgement about me is good for my soul. I DECIDE what makes me happy, or sad, or angry, or scared, NOT others. NO sir, I won't give anyone a privilege to wreck havoc on the tranquil waters of my soul. \- If my life was a movie would I watch it? Freedom comes from facing my fear. Life is only worth living if I continue getting up over and over and over, no matter how many times I fail, stare life in its eyes, and say: "Bring it on B#$%&!". \- In the same spirit, I spent 6 months stuttering openly with anyone I met. This was my way of making fear my B!#$%. I was DONE letting fear and shame control my every move. \- I approached strangers in the mall, spoke to beautiful girls in the park, ordered from restaurants, all while stuttering voluntarily and holding steady eye contact. My experience with almost everyone was that of grace. Half of them declined to speak, but the other half that did speak were the nicest people possible. The most valuable lesson I learnt was to NOT let others affect how I feel about myself. I had positive interactions and few negative interactions, but I didn't let it affect me. It took a while to get into this mindset, but once I was there, I felt like a new person, ready to take on anything! Hope this helps.

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Anticipation & AvoidanceCoping & AdvocacyIdentity & DisabilityEmotional Experience

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Hiding & ConcealmentVoluntary Stuttering & ExposureAcceptance & PrideHope & Motivation