My first take on your post was "imposter syndrome." You don't give yourself enough credit for your achievements. It is **HARD** for stutterers to speak in front of a class. Just showing up is huge. It also reads like you're seeking approval from others. You must respect yourself to gain the respect of others. The more you respect yourself, the less the respect of others matters to you on an emotional level. Be kind to yourself. You've had it hard. You're out there working for it. Recognize your worth.