how can i accept that stuttering wont go away?

how can i accept that stuttering wont go away? as much as i gaslight myself that i'll one day start speaking normally, it wont happen. everyday i wake up thinking "okay, today i control my breath better, i talk slower" etc hoping that it just stops, and it carries on. i cant rlly enjoy phone calls or talking with my friends bcuz my stuttering just ruins every joke i make or like every conversation i have, all my dialogs are unclear and its annoying asf, i just cant accept that this is how i will live for the rest of my life. its bad and ruining my life yes, but it would help if i can just accept whats going on and stop gaslighting myself thinking it will change. how can i overcome this?