Don't worry :) You didn't come off as conceited. I knew what you meant. The truth is nobody knows what happens behind closed doors. I hear stories and see videos of several stutterers have the courage to stand up and do public speaking, talking about their stutter. To anybody watching, it can give off the appearance like their stutter doesn't bother them. I think deep-down it still does. Your last point is right on. Laying awake in bed at night or not going to bed right away when I should. This is so me. I have made progress with my speech. It certainly is way better than it was 3 years ago thanks to the therapy and just overall life changes I've made. Even with all that, I still spend some nights lying awake, reading about stuttering or watching TED talks on stuttering just trying to figure out what these successful people did. Maybe they did nothing. Maybe they are the same but it just doesn't bother them as much. I bet it still does though.