Where abouts do you live? I’m in the Scotland and September is the end of summer so I find that I start to deteriorate around then. Suicide rates (not saying you are suicidal) are highest in April (spring time) because that’s when people realise they are actually depressed and not just down because of the winter weather. What age are you if you don’t mind me asking? I’m 21 and life is starting to get better. My rough years were 18 till now. Leaving school and going into the big bad world was too much of a change for me but I’ve finally started to accept my stutter now. I know it’s hard, but you just need to be patience with yourself. I’m not confident speaking but I try to find confidence in other areas. I work hard, I try my best in college and I find that the confidence from one area starts to run off on your social confidence