I would really try not to live in the past and hold resentment. My parents sent me to speech therapy and: 1. I hated it and cried and screamed before I went. I kicked up an enormous fuss every time. 2. It didn’t help me at all. It’s just not helpful for you to hold resentment for something that you have no idea how it would have gone. Try to look at what you can do now. You can go To speech therapy now... so why not do that?