Congrats! You stutter, it is a part of you, you should come to terms with it and try not so hard to hide it. So what if people know? It isn't a big deal. "100 people watching, some were looking at me like a freak" This is all in your head. Maybe a few in the audience are also covert stutterers? Maybe they look up to you for being able to attempt-talking in front of the crowd. The few who thinks you are a freak are assholes anyways. "I never feel more humiliated than ever." We are proud of you. Keep your head high. Stuttering is nothing to be ashamed of, it is just the way we talk. Again congrats! I am so proud of us all.