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Covert? Does anyone else here just not speak when they block and wait until it comes out without actually audibly stuttering? For example, if I'm in a group and I go to say something but feel the block, instead of forcing some noise out I just wont say anything, stop trying to say it, and then start again. Sometimes it eventually comes out and other times it just doesn't come out no matter how many times I try (cue inwards spiral of self hate..lol). Like, sometimes I'll be wanting someone to pass me something, and ill literally be sat there for like 5-10 mins until I feel I'm able to ask them without stuttering. This makes time pressured communication for me very hard, for example, a shop assistant saying "Hi" to me. Sometimes I can say hi straight back, sometimes I can even say hi and ask them how they are, but if it doesn't come out first try then I just look away and dont say anything. Anyone else do this? I feel like its basically preventing me from being myself and saying what I want to say. Lots of avoidance, very frustrating!!