It can be depressing…it was for me as well but it was also kind of a relief. I was able to accept that’s who I was that’s who I am, I can’t hide it, i’m going stutter my whole life. It’s difficult because you feel alone. “ no one understands what i’m going through, no I can’t just slow down. “ everyone deals with it in their own way. I don’t have any answers for you. Everyone deals with it in their own way. Just remember that you do have a support group. May be on Reddit but you have one that understands you. DM me if you want my cell and I’d be happy to text if you ever feel the need to vent or just need an ear to listen to.