You’re right this is a lot to read but I think I’ve got the idea. ( I too am a bit drunk) My advice ? Which, I mean whatever. Right? Fuck all external factors stopping you from reaching the point your heart said to follow and your mind decided on. You will stutter again. It will happen. Maybe when you know it’s coming. Maybe right when you thought you had it beat. But it doesn’t change anything, sure it took a little longer but a message is a message! Get it out haha. Kidding. I read in there you WALKED INTO A COMPANY LANDED AN INTERNSHIP. There were moments I couldn’t answer my phone mumbling over the “h” hello. I remember in grade school using pen and paper to communicate and deciding to be mute 😂. I remember this morning proving a point to my daughter in the middle of my macho speech and my blockage was the cherry on top to send the message home. It’s us man , I get having a moment, a day , a week of constant blockages or feeling like you’ll never shake it but dude. Keep walking into places. Keep landing deals. Confidence is key. You channeled it in that interview. Find yourself there more