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Nothing can be done I am 18M, a transition into adulthood, stressful even for normal speakers. When you stack stuttering on top of the weight of being a responsible adult, things simply become unbearable. I know how things will turn out (I will be a failure) because I am usually correct about every gut feeling, especially towards stuttering. I do not need any delusional speech in this thread that insinuates lack of life experience. I see an influx of people on here, mid 20s, 30s, 40s, even 50s, complaining about their lives, so that's living proof. I will end up just like the older users here. When people shake their heads, or lower their heads in disappointment when I have a speech block, all I can think of is "What did I do to be in this position", "Why am I being blamed for this". I'd do anything to speak like a normal person, taking 20 seconds just to say a simple word like "Hello" is dehumanizing. I want things to end and I'm not referring to suicide, I do not believe in suicide. There needs to be a message sent. Every problem I have, especially stuttering has someone or something to blame for it, and it isn't me. My parents could've done something when I were younger, maybe positive reinforcement associated with speech so I wouldn't have a "deer in headlights of pure terror" moment whenever I open my mouth. I'm tired of being blamed for something I didn't cause, I don't deserve this. ​