Damn man sucks you feel so down in life that you want to resort to that. I hope you Change your mind and keep pushing Life is hard asf but you shouldn't give up man. I actually had some success thus week. I been grinding for a job since May when I left my old one. Been having a hard time talking on the phone , but I finally got a few calls and they. Went well I do believe our stutter limits us if we let it. I just say fuck it and keep charging forward , putting in the work to better myself. I know you can too I'm rooting for ya