You are very right. I think there is so much shame, embarrassment, fear, guilt, anger, denial, and hopelessness built up from childhood when you stutter that you don't want to stutter, even though in reality those 2 things can be mutually exclusive. In other words, you are now an adult, and you can learn to stutter without all those feelings. but it has to be active struggle to get past those emotions. Once they are de-coupled,the power that stuttering has over you goes away and the power of the stutter fades as well, leaving you without the emotions, and without an unmanageable stutter. By putting yourself out there you build better memories when you stutter including acceptance, kindness, hope, pride, courage etc. so even when you do stutter, it doesn't destroy you every day. Bravo my guy, keep it up.