"Pain of people who stutter is not determined by age but on how long you go on without accepting stuttering is okay" I was about to post something similar to you ,but i am feeling better after reading you that i am not alone who fill like this, I afraid to talk, more than stutter it's i don't have word to put my thoughts into , i do stuff I don't want to do, i feel insecure about my existence like person like me could exist .i really relate with you when you said you have mentally like a teenager.